Life and Truth
There have been a couple of posts in the works and saved over the last few months, but really I should apologize for my absence lately. I’ve actually picked up my “real” journal a few times… SHOCK! I actually only have a few minutes, so this’ll be a brief one. (Yes, yes .. you’re welcome… Ha!)
This week’s been tough, not gonna lie. I’ve realized a few things and asked a few hard questions. First of all, I really love the Lord. Really. Like don’t make me all perfect and stuff by the way that I say that, but somehow I know that when things don’t go the way I thought they would, I can still hold onto a safe place and be firm in Him. That lap is a still safe place to be invited into. I learned it traveling the world, I learned it in uncertainty, I learned it when I felt extremely alone, I learned it making decisions for the future, I learned it through break-ups. I just really love Him and He’s GREAT.
Second, I love this other man. Yep. Pretty unashamedly. There’s no other hand that fits mine quite the same, no other person I’d want by my side through life, no other running partner, try-new-things-together partner, you-name-it partner, love of my life. It’s just true.
Third, I have no clue what is going to happen in my life. Really. Like NO STINKIN’ CLUE. Admittedly, I’m not a huge fan of that. But here’s the thing. I love the Lord. Like a lot. And even alone, everything is alright. HE is alright.
So there ya have it folks. Yes, I still get that sick-awful feeling and pain that goes from my heart all of the way down to the pit of my stomach. But then there’s this peace that envelopes me. Because in everything I choose to say that YOU ARE GOOD.
